Oh. My. God.
I am so angry at myself; I made this blog to fortify myself (or whatever), but what do I do? Binge on baked minestrone?
I would purge if I could. We have company over, and every time I've tried to vomit, I can't... can't. Nothing ever comes out. If I were to guess, it was only 150 g of soup, but ohmygod that must be like 450 calories.
Obviously, no more food for today. But what should I eat tomorrow? I'm thinking about, like, 3/4 of an apple and maybe a hard boiled egg... God, I was doing so well with my weight loss, but then I ate all of that. Hopefully? When I step on the scale later today, there will still be some loss. I was at 107.2 last time I checked, and I can only hope that I stay at 107.2 (or 107.4 might be fine, I think) for today. Who knows? Today might finally be the day that I finally vomit. All that I really aim for is to be under 107 by the end of Sunday.
Wish me luck, all 0 of you!
Saturday, April 27, 2019
Welcome, Folks
Right.
As far as blogs go? I've never made one before. But here's some stuff about myself.
I live in Arizona; I'm a single child, yadda yadda. I live here with my dad and his girlfriend. Well, our house is big, and we're getting a roommate soon, but that doesn't really matter. My mom is all the way in Wyoming, and I swear, I love her more than anything. She sends me flowers when I do well in school, and she always calls to see how I'm doing. My dad? I sometimes go for days without talking to or even seeing him- and we live in the same house! So, due to all of that, I'm moving to Wyoming before Summer.
I really want to lose weight.
I don't know why. I think that I want to impress my family? Some part of me thinks that if I drop to a certain weight, I won't need to watch what I eat so much any more, but I know that I'll never stop trying to lose weight. At this point, I just don't feel hungry anymore.
I've been trying to lose weight for almost a year now, but I haven't seen many results until recently. I think that I was around 130 at one point (like August 2018, a super long time ago), but that might've been when I started losing weight. From November, I began to weigh ~118, but on Christmas I jumped up to 127 pounds. I think that I mostly felt disgusted with myself, but I went crazy with weight loss. Since Christmas, I've started keto a few times (and gave up) but then I started a simple low carb diet, along with calorie restriction.
Currently, I am 5-foot-5, and I weight 107.2 pounds. That's a bmi of 17.8. I'm so proud of myself!!
I really want to reach 105 by next Sunday (8 days from now- I'm keeping my expectations low) and I want to eventually reach 98 pounds by Summer. I know that I can do this!
Anyways, I just really wanted to start this blog to inspire myself and maybe inspire some others. Not that I'm very inspiring. But whatever, maybe I'll post some pictures of myself here and there. I'll be proud enough if I even remember to post.
As far as blogs go? I've never made one before. But here's some stuff about myself.
I live in Arizona; I'm a single child, yadda yadda. I live here with my dad and his girlfriend. Well, our house is big, and we're getting a roommate soon, but that doesn't really matter. My mom is all the way in Wyoming, and I swear, I love her more than anything. She sends me flowers when I do well in school, and she always calls to see how I'm doing. My dad? I sometimes go for days without talking to or even seeing him- and we live in the same house! So, due to all of that, I'm moving to Wyoming before Summer.
I really want to lose weight.
I don't know why. I think that I want to impress my family? Some part of me thinks that if I drop to a certain weight, I won't need to watch what I eat so much any more, but I know that I'll never stop trying to lose weight. At this point, I just don't feel hungry anymore.
I've been trying to lose weight for almost a year now, but I haven't seen many results until recently. I think that I was around 130 at one point (like August 2018, a super long time ago), but that might've been when I started losing weight. From November, I began to weigh ~118, but on Christmas I jumped up to 127 pounds. I think that I mostly felt disgusted with myself, but I went crazy with weight loss. Since Christmas, I've started keto a few times (and gave up) but then I started a simple low carb diet, along with calorie restriction.
Currently, I am 5-foot-5, and I weight 107.2 pounds. That's a bmi of 17.8. I'm so proud of myself!!
I really want to reach 105 by next Sunday (8 days from now- I'm keeping my expectations low) and I want to eventually reach 98 pounds by Summer. I know that I can do this!
Anyways, I just really wanted to start this blog to inspire myself and maybe inspire some others. Not that I'm very inspiring. But whatever, maybe I'll post some pictures of myself here and there. I'll be proud enough if I even remember to post.
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