Saturday, May 11, 2019
It's Fine
Yeah, I'm supposed to be fasting. Yesterday, I had a couple of mints (30 cal total) and today I, uh... I had some coconut roasted cashews. Today I've only had 60 cal, but I've also lost like 1 pound since this morning,, so I guess it's fine??
I just need to stop eating... Stop eating until Monday, and my god things will work out I swear. I just really want to get down to 95 pounds before Fathers Day because that's when I'm moving and I know that my mom actually cares about my health and that she'll actually try to get me to eat. I'm just worried that I won't lose weight fast enough.
In an earlier post, I highlighted some weekly milestones that I need to meet in order to be on track, but I've already forgotten them...
But I ate today when I know I shouldn't have. It's fine, though, I think.
I just need to stop eating... Stop eating until Monday, and my god things will work out I swear. I just really want to get down to 95 pounds before Fathers Day because that's when I'm moving and I know that my mom actually cares about my health and that she'll actually try to get me to eat. I'm just worried that I won't lose weight fast enough.
In an earlier post, I highlighted some weekly milestones that I need to meet in order to be on track, but I've already forgotten them...
But I ate today when I know I shouldn't have. It's fine, though, I think.
Friday, May 10, 2019
Some really nice foods :) (tangent)
Just a sidenote for today-
Jicama is really good. 38 cal for 100g, and is high in fiber. This is a good jicama tortilla recipe.
Navy beans are only 67 cal for 100g (raw), and they contain lots of fiber and iron.
Tofu is just great. At 76 cal for 100g, they're super good for sandwiches. Plus, they're also processed into cheese, which makes me happy :)
Shirataki noodles. Oh my god. They're so good, they're super low cal (0-10 cal per serving) and they're high fiber. I really want to eat them, but I'm scared because they're so dense (contain a lot of water) and I fear that if I eat them, the scale would lie to me. Also, my dad complains whenever I want food at the store, so getting them is hard.
Do you know what this means? Fried noodles with jicama, tofu, and navy beans. I think that I can just fry them in soy sauce (because who needs the calories in oil!) and they'll be just perfect. I think that, for the process, I'll marinate the tofu beforehand... I'll chop the jicama and boil it with the beans and noodles, then transfer my concoction to a pan in order to fry it- maybe slice up some spinach and add to the frying mix? And then I'll serve the noodles, and use the same pan to heat up the tofu a bit. I've never cooked tofu before, so I'll have to see how this goes. My main worry is getting the ingredients (as I mentioned before, my dad hates it when I get food!) so I'll probably have to walk to the store...
I'm,,, going a bit crazy. When I fast, I always fantasize my next meal, almost as if I'm some sort of prison inmate that's choosing my last supper. In a week (specifically this week), I get like, one or two meals spread out over 3 days. Eating is rare, so I always want to make it as good as possible. However, at this point, I think that I just don't get hungry any more. Last time I fasted, I went 3 days without feeling hungry at all. At this point, I feel sick when I talk about food... Is this good or bad? What if this spirals out of control? What if I never enjoy a meal in my life? I'm never hungry, and the thought of eating makes me sick... sweets are disgusting... meats are bad for the environment... I'm only safe with veggies, but I'm so picky with how I prepare them, and my schedule hardly allows me to eat, too.
My schedule: breakfast @ 5:10 am, if I feel like it. Lunch/dinner has to be between 1-4:30, and I refuse to eat a meal within an hour of finishing my previous one.
I also take forever to eat, so I just... I guess that this is ideal. Yeah, now it's impossible to eat, so I should see even more results. My rules are everything now. I control myself, and the rules control me. If my body refuses to eat, I follow the rules, and if I break the rules, then I take laxatives and fast. Food is scary. Don't eat.
Jicama is really good. 38 cal for 100g, and is high in fiber. This is a good jicama tortilla recipe.
Navy beans are only 67 cal for 100g (raw), and they contain lots of fiber and iron.
Tofu is just great. At 76 cal for 100g, they're super good for sandwiches. Plus, they're also processed into cheese, which makes me happy :)
Shirataki noodles. Oh my god. They're so good, they're super low cal (0-10 cal per serving) and they're high fiber. I really want to eat them, but I'm scared because they're so dense (contain a lot of water) and I fear that if I eat them, the scale would lie to me. Also, my dad complains whenever I want food at the store, so getting them is hard.
Do you know what this means? Fried noodles with jicama, tofu, and navy beans. I think that I can just fry them in soy sauce (because who needs the calories in oil!) and they'll be just perfect. I think that, for the process, I'll marinate the tofu beforehand... I'll chop the jicama and boil it with the beans and noodles, then transfer my concoction to a pan in order to fry it- maybe slice up some spinach and add to the frying mix? And then I'll serve the noodles, and use the same pan to heat up the tofu a bit. I've never cooked tofu before, so I'll have to see how this goes. My main worry is getting the ingredients (as I mentioned before, my dad hates it when I get food!) so I'll probably have to walk to the store...
I'm,,, going a bit crazy. When I fast, I always fantasize my next meal, almost as if I'm some sort of prison inmate that's choosing my last supper. In a week (specifically this week), I get like, one or two meals spread out over 3 days. Eating is rare, so I always want to make it as good as possible. However, at this point, I think that I just don't get hungry any more. Last time I fasted, I went 3 days without feeling hungry at all. At this point, I feel sick when I talk about food... Is this good or bad? What if this spirals out of control? What if I never enjoy a meal in my life? I'm never hungry, and the thought of eating makes me sick... sweets are disgusting... meats are bad for the environment... I'm only safe with veggies, but I'm so picky with how I prepare them, and my schedule hardly allows me to eat, too.
My schedule: breakfast @ 5:10 am, if I feel like it. Lunch/dinner has to be between 1-4:30, and I refuse to eat a meal within an hour of finishing my previous one.
I also take forever to eat, so I just... I guess that this is ideal. Yeah, now it's impossible to eat, so I should see even more results. My rules are everything now. I control myself, and the rules control me. If my body refuses to eat, I follow the rules, and if I break the rules, then I take laxatives and fast. Food is scary. Don't eat.
Thursday, May 9, 2019
This is a Vent
I'm not an emotional person at all, yet here I am, on the verge of tears. Why?
I wanted to go to Yogurtini. I mean, I am very adamant on fasting from tomorrow (Friday) to at least Monday, or maybe Tuesday. I wanted to go to Yogurtini to get a simple vegan 100 cal treat, but I also refuse to eat after 5 (because of metabolism, duh). My dad was willing to take me after doing yard work, which I had no issue with. If I ate at 5:30, it would be okay because I'll make up for it by fasting for like 4-5 days... But my dad was finally ready to leave at 5:30, which was a no-go for me.
I guess that I'm crying because I almost broke the rule. Well, I didn't even get dressed to go, but maybe I'm upset because nobody else understands the rule? I don't know anymore.
With that, the last time I ate was around 4:10 on Thursday, May 9th. This week I've had 620 calories, so I think that it counts as a win.
On Saturday, I went to bed (after binging) and weighed 104; now I weigh 101.2, last I checked. I'm sure I'll be below 100.5 by the end of Sunday, so this week puts me ahead of the game.
Also, my mom somehow knows how much I eat? My whole family is concerned about how much I eat, which is odd because they don't even know whether I've lost or gained weight. They haven't seen me in forever. But, my family is concerned that I'm some starving kid in Ethiopia and my mom made me get this app (My Fitnesspal) to track what I eat in a day, and hopefully get me to eat more... unfortunately, I'm using it for the exact opposite :)
The app is actually really good, it is really accurate with calorie counts and it has one of those "search and select" features, which is really good compared with what I used to do (google "amount of calories in [food]" and write it in my journal.) Hopefully I continue to use my journal in co-ordinance with this app.
Alright, I'm out of space. Vent officially over.
Edit: I'm already at 100.8 pounds (might go up when I drink something), but I'm kinda shaky now about fasting. My mom just called and she was really concerned about how much I eat, which kinda made me sad :(
I think that I might have a sandwich or something small each day for this weekend, but I dunno. I don't want to eat, and she wants me to. I'm kinda at a loss, but I really want to fast. I think that the next time I eat, it'll be something really good and nutritious. Just for her.
I wanted to go to Yogurtini. I mean, I am very adamant on fasting from tomorrow (Friday) to at least Monday, or maybe Tuesday. I wanted to go to Yogurtini to get a simple vegan 100 cal treat, but I also refuse to eat after 5 (because of metabolism, duh). My dad was willing to take me after doing yard work, which I had no issue with. If I ate at 5:30, it would be okay because I'll make up for it by fasting for like 4-5 days... But my dad was finally ready to leave at 5:30, which was a no-go for me.
I guess that I'm crying because I almost broke the rule. Well, I didn't even get dressed to go, but maybe I'm upset because nobody else understands the rule? I don't know anymore.
With that, the last time I ate was around 4:10 on Thursday, May 9th. This week I've had 620 calories, so I think that it counts as a win.
On Saturday, I went to bed (after binging) and weighed 104; now I weigh 101.2, last I checked. I'm sure I'll be below 100.5 by the end of Sunday, so this week puts me ahead of the game.
Also, my mom somehow knows how much I eat? My whole family is concerned about how much I eat, which is odd because they don't even know whether I've lost or gained weight. They haven't seen me in forever. But, my family is concerned that I'm some starving kid in Ethiopia and my mom made me get this app (My Fitnesspal) to track what I eat in a day, and hopefully get me to eat more... unfortunately, I'm using it for the exact opposite :)
The app is actually really good, it is really accurate with calorie counts and it has one of those "search and select" features, which is really good compared with what I used to do (google "amount of calories in [food]" and write it in my journal.) Hopefully I continue to use my journal in co-ordinance with this app.
Alright, I'm out of space. Vent officially over.
Edit: I'm already at 100.8 pounds (might go up when I drink something), but I'm kinda shaky now about fasting. My mom just called and she was really concerned about how much I eat, which kinda made me sad :(
I think that I might have a sandwich or something small each day for this weekend, but I dunno. I don't want to eat, and she wants me to. I'm kinda at a loss, but I really want to fast. I think that the next time I eat, it'll be something really good and nutritious. Just for her.
Tuesday, May 7, 2019
Fasting
On Saturday, I had a really large picnic with friends... I think that I ate 800 cals that day? I decided to fast for a bit to make up for it, and today was my first time eating since then. I had 3 lil rolls of sushi (2 had no rice) and most of a raisin cookie. I think that it was... 110 cals for all of that? Anyways, this week, I hope to eat less than 1,400 calories total, so I might have to fast from Friday through the weekend, and maybe into the next week.
Fasting is actually really exciting to me. I feel more vigorous and I focus more in class. I've been going on runs, too! I've lost over 2 pounds since that picnic (.8 lbs per day), so I'm really glad that I've found this. From now on, I'll only eat for 2-4 days a week, and always keep it under 1,400 calories, and probably easily below 1,000 per week.
Tomorrow, I plan on eating grapes and cabbage only (I'm going vegan!!) and same goes for Thursday.
Fasting is actually really exciting to me. I feel more vigorous and I focus more in class. I've been going on runs, too! I've lost over 2 pounds since that picnic (.8 lbs per day), so I'm really glad that I've found this. From now on, I'll only eat for 2-4 days a week, and always keep it under 1,400 calories, and probably easily below 1,000 per week.
Tomorrow, I plan on eating grapes and cabbage only (I'm going vegan!!) and same goes for Thursday.
Sunday, May 5, 2019
Lentil Soup
I've been seeing some good looking vegan recipes lately, so I decided to modify one to make it low-cal. This recipe is for one serving.
ingredients
4 slices carrot (25g)
Chopped onion (25g)
Lime/lemon juice, seasoning
1 cup broth
Less than 1/4 cup dry lentils
steps
Cook the onion and carrot in a pot.
When the veggies are cooked, add broth and lime/lemon juice.
Continue cooking until simmering.
Add lentils and cover the pot, roughly 15-20 minutes.
nutrition
195 calories
24g carbs
14g protein
2g fat
Can't wait to eat this when I'm done with my fast hahahahahahahshadjdkadakd
ingredients
4 slices carrot (25g)
Chopped onion (25g)
Lime/lemon juice, seasoning
1 cup broth
Less than 1/4 cup dry lentils
steps
Cook the onion and carrot in a pot.
When the veggies are cooked, add broth and lime/lemon juice.
Continue cooking until simmering.
Add lentils and cover the pot, roughly 15-20 minutes.
nutrition
195 calories
24g carbs
14g protein
2g fat
Can't wait to eat this when I'm done with my fast hahahahahahahshadjdkadakd
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